Previously in 2014

2/3/2014

Grief is a funny thing. It can shatter your heart then turn around and strengthen you if you let it. It is the constant thought in the back of your mind. The awareness that your heart isn't whole. In the beginning you go about the motions of life because you have to and with time things get better and pain is replaced with hope. Some choose to remain in that place of pain thinking that that is the only way to remember or that somehow you deserve that pain but that just isn't true. Yes, there will always be times when you realize how much you miss what was taken and in a brief moment you grieve again, but you don't have to remain there and you shouldn't. It is cankerous to your spirit. Remember that everything has its opposite, with great sorrow there must be great happiness and it can and will follow. The key is hope, it is faith, it is knowing that it will be made right no matter what it is. God will make it right. Don't hate him for the things you feel he's taken or the things you feel he hasn't done. He has made you the promise that you will be made whole. I know that I will experience more sorrow in my life and I dread that day but I also know and have the promise that everything will be alright. "Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

5/30/2014
I tend to dam up my emotions until it's too much and I have no other choice but to cry. Sometimes it's all we can do. The month of May has been particularly hard for me. I've shed my tears. I've put it in its place and I'm moving forward. I do believe everything happens for a reason and there are moments in our lives that we don't and won't understand but as I've said time and time again, no matter what, there's always hope. I'm grateful for the gospel, I'm grateful for my Savior and for the atonement that encompasses so much more than suffering for our sins. He knows what true heartache and pain feel like, physical and emotional and even He wept. The one who created all things, who can see all, wept. Believe in Him, have faith and hope that all will be made right. He can never forget us, we are imprinted in the palms of his hands.

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