a final part of something, especially a period of time, an activity, or a story

I printed and deleted my previous blog posts. I felt scared and sad all at the same time. I have all of my posts printed into 2 nicely bound books (thank you Blookup.com) but I think my emotions about deleting it means that it's the end of 12 years of blogging. I love blogging even though my last blog post was Dec of 2017.

So what do I want this new blog to be about?

We are doing a new course study at church. Church went from 3 hours down to 2 and we are now focusing on our own personal study and developing a closer relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.

I have felt the need to start a blog typing out my thoughts or insights regarding the different lessons. Previously I have written out those things but frankly my hand is tired and I type far faster. I also think that my thoughts flow easier doing it this way than the other.

My only dilemma now is whether I go all the way to beginning of the year as I had many thoughts I had written out or do I start with where I am now?

I actually am far behind schedule in my personal studies (oops).

I also need to add that my old church ward was completely dissolved and our boundaries for our wards were redone and a couple new wards created.

At first I didn't like it, our old ward we had been in for 10 years of our married life and it was home from the very beginning. I felt like the choice had been taken away from me and I lost a lot of friends with the change. The first Sunday we were in the new ward I thought "I feel no connection to these people and good thing we won't be here for long." 

My friend Melissa was now in our ward so that was a good thing and we had other friends come over with us to the new ward but it just didn't feel right to me.

The 2nd Sunday was much better, I didn't feel like I was in the twilight zone and there are very nice people that I was able to meet and I am now teaching the sunbeam class in primary, Sunbeams are the 3 year olds. They are so very precious and I am happy to be in there with them and hope that I can teach them in a way that they understand. So after my 3rd Sunday (last Sunday) in the new ward I am feeling more connected but still not 100%. Everything just happened so fast we were all in shock.

4th Sunday update: I don't feel this way anymore, I am beginning to love the people in my ward!

That being said, times are changing. Life is changing, wards are changing, people are changing. There seems to be a lot "endings and beginnings" happening.

So anyway, I feel like I want this blog now to be more of a journal of gospel learning and insights that will be intermingled with personal blog posts.

We shall see how this goes. I'd still rather be sleeping.